It’s time to rant incoherently online; I’ve earned it, damn it. So, to interrupt the latest and possibly-most-ridiculous Trump shitstorm (i.e. Comey-firing) as well as my own ill-fated, all-week & late-night Final Grades marathon, I’d like thank the following, without which I would’ve spent these days hollering unprofessional unpleasantries at my laptop: Coffee-M.I.A.-coffee-Slayer-coffee-M.I.A., as well as my drumset sitting nearby in my study for when I catch a plagiarist. And, now that there’s no hope in hell I’ll meet my deadline: Lana Del Rey…and merlot. (I am more specific on the wine than the coffee. Why?) See I’m at the point where, in a comment to a Texas student’s essay on Open Carry, I find myself searching Mary Karr’s badass memoir “The Liar’s Club” for that line about how every Texan knows how to…well, here it is: “In Texas any four-year-old knew you didn’t point a firearm at a live creature unless you wanted it dead. Even a busted, empty gun got handled like a snake.” (And then the author’s mother spends the next epoch pointing an unnecessarily swanky pistol at her drunken husband while deflating him with a merciless rhapsody on how fucking worthless he is.) So for the moment I’m all for Open Carry in the state that produces such amazing nonfiction lit. And I am, contrary to the style of this rant, quite lucid. But for tonight, I am ceremoniously putting the Presentable Prof. persona to sleep. Am I not entitled to my own verbal diarrhea, posted in public without paragraph breaks, no matter how disingenuously I ponder over it? As a defender of respectable and logical academic discourse, I hereby claim the right to just fucking lose it sometimes. Comma comma comma, citation citation citation.
So on a side note before I begin, it turns out that one of the pillows Jason and I got Mom for Christmas when I was just old enough to drive to Walmart actually makes a great surface for my Kindle & keyboard. Tragically, only now do I realize I didn’t bring my eyedrops; furthermore, I will need to pace around the house and snack and stretch before I can resume typing. Surely I can squeeze out an intro paragraph first? That is not at all certain. It was a long drive to Pennsylvania.
Broadly speaking, what were the questions or concerns that best characterize your journey?
- Isn’t M.I.A. the most interesting artist to have been discovered in the year of our lord, 2016? Of course “Paper Planes” back when it was current, playing regularly on the radio…I found it unusually catchy for what I figured was some hip-hop mashup, but I never looked further till I was in another state, in another life. I waited from Lansing, where things were generally shitty though with certain bright spots (neighbors and grad school), through a second life in Ann Arbor (in a second and shorter-lived tenure at Starbucks, this time as a barista with almost zero ambitions towards shifthood, biking to work on days I didn’t teach–yes, that second run in A2 was when all the Prof stuff started, when picking up Writing Center hours as well as two classes in a semester was making it Big Time) to where I’m at now–Maryland–to look up M.I.A. And Jesus, it’s a revolution.
- It started small, listening a few times to her debut, Arular, with barely a notion of which album “Paper Planes” fell on–just heard that track while playing the artist on shuffle (via Google Play). Then, on the way to PA for Thanksgiving, Mary was talking about a coworker named Maya and I thought, that’s what we could listen to…
- And then it was M.I.A radio on Play, with detours to Santigold, Rye Rye, Azaelia Banks, Peaches (one of Mary’s scandelous old favorites), N.A.S.A, Thunderheist, Lady Sovereign, and, I just remembered, someone named Kreayshawn . . .
- Ultimately, though, music for me became a choice between Metal and M.I.A.
- But then because I still listened to CocoRosie radio, Emily Wells came up.
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I had taken leave of my office to fetch the Exacto Knife to cut a sharp little cord off my latest candidate for Acceptable Office Chair when the doorbell rang. The No Solicitors sign hasn’t been working lately. Yesterday it was two guys in dress shirts, belts & slacks, carrying tablets. We let them walk away. But today at 2:30, it was a dark-haired young woman in a tank top and jeans carrying a cigarette whose smoke was brought right into the living room by our “kid fan,” the magical conductor in the hallway ceiling that draws such currents from the windows and doors that we once had our five-year-old convinced it would suck her up too if she didn’t behave. So this lady, what, had she lost her dog, her child?
No, she wanted to know if we were in the market for landscaping or any other lawn services.
I gave her the standard line: we rent this house we don’t own it, we don’t cover that end of things. Which was not a very forthright thing to say to a stranger who wore no landscaping garb and presented no landscaping brochure but did bring smoke into our home. She said OK and turned back down the sidewalk; I shut the door.
Wife and I compared notes on her sketchy demeanor and likely objective. Personally, I found her to be more dazed and maybe sad than sketchy, as if not sure herself just how she came to be knocking on doors with this particular offer on a sunny afternoon. Our guess was that she was scraping around for drug money, scoping out houses to burglarize, or both.
So with a thoughtful air, she picked up her keys and said she’d be right back.
Five minutes later she returned with a report that the woman’s partner was a tall dude with reddish hair who sat in a blue Toyota truck looking sketchily this way and that while his lady friend knocked on doors. They’d been followed down the road and had their license number recorded; now they were getting themselves reported to the non-emergency police.
The dogs, sound asleep, are on call; no walk for them tonight.
Just flirting with Hindi since two nights ago–with the Mango app, free via the public library. Picked up volume A of The Longman Anthology of World Literature, containing the Ramayana and bits of the Mahabharata, that we read in the Non-Western Lit course I sort of taught a few years ago. What was the name of the documentary series we watched to put it all in context? Hosted by a thin British guy exploring the realms where dance told the birth of the world and statues were doused with colors; later, in China, climbing a sacred mountain behind a thinner Chinese guy with a cig in his mouth…
Okay, so there is no theme, no projection of one, maybe it’s going to be just freewriting, nothing planned in advance and why even ask that, in which case the blander the better. Well, it’s a space to let loose and not be entirely private, but certaintly it’ll never find it’s way (from my directive anyway) to my students; I’ve taken it off my Linkedin…you know I teach how to write effectively in various contexts, and this is not a context that I care to share anymore, I haven’t in years–not since I left Cleary and invited students to comment maybe for extra credit but certainly as part of their own online writing assignment. So why bother putting it out there at all? To avoid being too insular, letting all those sentences sit forever in drawers and folders. To spawn through a multitude of trivial posts for which I have no inclination to gain Likes, let alone Shares.
Well, it–my spending more than 10 minutes caring–all started when I realized that in all likelihood, the battle for an acceptable office chair had finally come to an end, and…then my keyboard’s batteries died, and my resolve was put to the test. Now if I’m really serious I’ll dig up the legal pads my wife bought last week to assist in her jobs research. What waste of time, pen and paper; the legal pad knows this. Fill up a page and rip it off.
What do you call this place, then? Some theme or another requests permission to be established before you submit your nomenclature.